Pity Parties
I have been quite determined to throw myself a pity party lately, and God seems quite determined not to let me.
Every time I attempt to feel sorry for myself, He gives me dose of reality and truth, and it stops me in my tracks.
Let me give you an example of today's "party".
There's been a lot of spiritual warfare going on in the lives of people around me lately, and it seems that God has been using me a lot recently to help fight in other people's battles. Be it through prayer, searching the scriptures, counsel or service.
And honestly, there is nothing better than being used by God. I am extremely thankful for all the opportunities God's presented me with to be an earthen vessel for Him. :)
But all this battle causes a lot of emotional and spiritual exhaustion. I got tired.
So yes, I had the nerve to feel sorry for myself. "I've been doing a lot with serving God! I've worked hard! Don't I deserve a personal pity party?" I told myself.
I was just building myself up to make it seem like I've been doing way more than I actually have, and I was giving myself all the credit, when that belongs to God.
And as soon as I started down that path, you know what the first thing that popped into my head was? "Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." And, "Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you."
My intentional reaction was to be frustrated. I didn't want an answer to my problem, I just wanted to complain and build up my ego.
But I know well enough that it never serves to be frustrated with God when He shows you the truth, and when He gives you what you need instead of what you want.
God wanted me to lay down my pride, humble myself, and put my problems into His hands.
You know, the more you learn and memorize God's word, that more difficult it is to make excuses for your sin, which can be frustrating. But it's also an extremely good thing, because the end of the those things is death. But now we have our fruit to holiness, and the end, everlasting life. (Romans 6:21-22)
Every time I attempt to feel sorry for myself, He gives me dose of reality and truth, and it stops me in my tracks.
Let me give you an example of today's "party".
There's been a lot of spiritual warfare going on in the lives of people around me lately, and it seems that God has been using me a lot recently to help fight in other people's battles. Be it through prayer, searching the scriptures, counsel or service.
And honestly, there is nothing better than being used by God. I am extremely thankful for all the opportunities God's presented me with to be an earthen vessel for Him. :)
But all this battle causes a lot of emotional and spiritual exhaustion. I got tired.
So yes, I had the nerve to feel sorry for myself. "I've been doing a lot with serving God! I've worked hard! Don't I deserve a personal pity party?" I told myself.
I was just building myself up to make it seem like I've been doing way more than I actually have, and I was giving myself all the credit, when that belongs to God.
And as soon as I started down that path, you know what the first thing that popped into my head was? "Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." And, "Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you."
My intentional reaction was to be frustrated. I didn't want an answer to my problem, I just wanted to complain and build up my ego.
But I know well enough that it never serves to be frustrated with God when He shows you the truth, and when He gives you what you need instead of what you want.
God wanted me to lay down my pride, humble myself, and put my problems into His hands.
You know, the more you learn and memorize God's word, that more difficult it is to make excuses for your sin, which can be frustrating. But it's also an extremely good thing, because the end of the those things is death. But now we have our fruit to holiness, and the end, everlasting life. (Romans 6:21-22)
posted by Allie @ 10:37 PM
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